A New Year...

.. a new age.

That is what everyone is saying, but what does that even mean. Is it just a way to motivate or are things really going to change. I've been in a rut. All of the changes that seem to be taking place don't seem to be anything good. Maybe it's because I am older, or just noticing more then I used to. Hopefully I can remove myself from this hole I dug myself into. I need motivation and do not know where to find it. This road isn't as straight as I originally planned it to be.

Here I am again

All hopes and dreams and no motivation.

How does this happen. Why can't I stick with it? I feel so lazy and miserable. I can not stick to a schedule to save my life. I can't start a workout program or healthy diet and actually keep up with it. I can't even get up early enough to have "me time" before my daughter wakes up. I feel like a horrible person. I need to do something about it, but what? Don't get me wrong, my daughter is well taken care of and our house is kept, but not to my possibly "irrational expectations". It is 12/12/1012, let's start a project. 

A Survey

I need a little randomness today. 

Here is a series of questions that I got from this random blog that I came across. (Uniquely Normal)

1. What is your best friend's Mom's name? 

I have numerous best friends. To be safe, I will say Cindy.

2. Where is the weirdest place you have a mole? 

Do chimmies count (my mom called moles that didn't stick up chimmies. I don't know why) If so, then I will say a small chimmy on the bottom of my left foot.

3. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had? 

I honestly could not remember a teachers name if I tried. I will go with an English teacher I had freshman year. He was kind of mean, and would randomly pull my scrunchies out of my hair during class. Maybe that is why I liked him.

4. Have you ever made out in a movie theater?

Of course, especially if the movie is dumb or if you are the only ones in there.

5. What body part do you wash first? 

hmmm I never really thought about it, I usually start on my chest and collar bone area.

6. Do you hover over the toilet in public bathrooms? 

Sometimes when my anxiety levels get the best of me and everything is dirty. I generally try not to use public restrooms at all.

7. What's the strangest talent you have?

 I am double jointed? That isn't really a strange talent though.

8. Do you have an innie or an outtie? 

Definate innie

9. What's your favorite flavored Pringles? 

Pizza probably. I haven't eaten them in a long time. I don't even know my options anymore.

10. Have you ever been tied up? Do you want to be?

Yes, and under the right circumstances. 

11. What was the last thing you ever got grounded for? 

Hmmm, welp, considering I am 27 years old, it's hard to remember. I didn't get grounded often, but it was probably around 14 years old or so.

12. Do you parallel park or drive around the block? 

I have the ability to parallel park, but I usually do not have a need for it.

13. Have you ever had two dates in one night?

What does a date consist of really? I mean, I have hung out with two different people in one day before.

14. How many times have you been cussed out? 

To my face, probably not since high school. Behind my back, who knows. Most people tend to be able to have grown-up conversations with me if they have a problem.

15. Which shoe do you put on first? 

Also something I have never thought of, but probably the right most of the time.

17. Have you ever been to a gay bar? 

Not that I remember, I normally do not go to bars. Too expensive. I can just drink at home.

18. Girls...?

Is this a question? Let's say girls usually have a vagina.

19. Is there one thing all of your love interests have had in common? 

Well, most of them have been pretty different from each other, other then them actually liking me back at one point in time.

20. Did you French kiss before you were 16? 

Yup, my first kiss was freshman year. I won't bore you with details.

21. Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting?

I am from Iowa, I know of people doing it, but I managed to stay away from it somehow.

22. Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep? 

Depends on the day, but always thinking of my daughter, and making sure she is sleeping sound.

23. Have you ever had a poem or a song written about you? 

Yup

24. If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets again or not wash your bath towel ever again, which would you rather not wash? 

Well, I guess I am the cleanest when I come out of the shower so it would take longer for my towel to go bad. On the other hand if you didn't wash your sheets you could always take a shower. Tough question. I will stick with towel for now and reserve my right to change my mind.

25. Have you ever found anything in your parents' bedroom that was questionable? 

This is the point where I become 100% sure this survey was meant for teenagers, but again, what survey isn't. Nothing that I have ever found in my parents room was questionable that I can remember.

26. What was your childhood nickname?

Oh I had millions. CandyMandy, SkinnyMinny, MandaPanda, Moona, Monndust, etc. 

27. When is the last time you played the air guitar?

I don't put times like that into my memory bank. I'm actually not even sure if I have ever done it.

28. Have you ever peeked in the opposite sexes locker room? 

Another teenage question. And who hasn't been in the opposite sex's locker room, I mean come on.

29. What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving? 

What is weird? I am usually pretty good at driving when I am driving. Let's say drive with my left leg up on the seat. My first car was automatic. No need for a left foot.

30. Have you ever bitten your toenails? 

Not unless I did when I was a kid. I'm too told to be that flexible.

31. How do you eat your cookie? 

HA!! I am not flexible enough for that either. (sorry, had to make some adult content, this survey was a bad idea. Can't go back now.)

32. When working out at the gym, do you wear a belt? 

Why would I work out at the gym? I am too lazy to work out at home. Why would I wear a belt? I'm confused.

33. Name something you do when you're alone that you wouldn't do in front of others. 

Another adult question maybe?  lol no, I do the same weird stuff in front of people as I do when I am alone.

36. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk? 

At this point, let's say < 1

37. Have you ever sniffed an animal's butt?

and what would be the point of ever doing that? I have sniffed my child's butt to see if she needed a diaper change. Easier then trying to look sometimes. Sorry, mom stuff.

38. How often do you clean out your ears? 

Like cotton swab or get them flushed out. The answer is either probably not enough, or never again (getting your ears flushed out is a traumatizing experience.

39. Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper? 

Fold, scrunching is too random. It's not reliable.

40. About how many times a day do you pick a wedgie?

It's involuntary, so I couldn't say but I would guess not often, because the underwear I wear doesn't really cause wedgies.

41. Do you have any strange phobias? 

Nothing strange. All normal stuff.

42. Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? 

Sticking anything in your nose is a foreign object, so yes.

43. What is the stupidest thing you've ever done at a bar? 

Again, not a bar person. (maybe it's not for teenagers?) but let's just say try to dance on a stripper pole. I was clothed, and probably looked dumb so don't worry.

44. Have you ever been dared to do something you totally regretted? 

Regret is a weird word, Everything ends up teaching you something at least. No one has ever dared me to hurt anyone so I can't say that I have done any dares to regret.

45. Have you ever called your love interest by an ex's name? 

I don't think so.

46. Have you caught a guy/girl farting while on a date? 

I don't think so, if I did it probably isn't something I would put in the memory bank.

47. Have you ever played naked Twister?

Not completely naked.

48. Have you ever been drunk at work?

Hungover, yes. Drunk, no.

49. Have you ever found your date's/lover's brother or sister more attractive?

My husband doesn't have any siblings, but if he did, I am sure that I would not because that is just creepy.

50. Do you want to bring sexy back?

Ummm, I don't know if I could handle the consequences. I don't know if YOU could handle the consequences, 

you're welcome for waisting a little bit of your life by making you read all of that.

Recap

No Soda Days.

 So as you know I decided to quit drinking Pepsi. I made it 20 days. I went from 119 lbs to 116 lbs in a week. Then Thanksgiving happened and I went up to 118 lbs. By the next week I was up to 121 lbs. A new highest number. :( Needless to say, I drank 7.5 ounces of Pepsi yesterday and 7.5 ounces of Pepsi today. I'm feeling pretty bad about it, I know. I just hate gaining weight after I start trying to lose it. It's so frustrating that I could lose weight without trying before, but now that I am trying, I just get heavier. UGH! (I an only 5'3 and my normal weight is about 100 lbs. I went back to 102 after I gave birth. I am just not used to seeing those numbers.)